circles & rings

My life seems to be going in circles lately.
It feels like I am spinning, spinning my wheels, spinning myself dizzy.

I need something to grab hold of, to steady me, to help me stabilize my life.

Maybe I'll go home and cook, or bake, or clean house.
Maybe that will ground me and keep things from spinning.
A clean house and a warm, home cooked meal always seems to bring a sense of comfort.

Birthday wishes...

I wish to experience this one life I have to the fullest;
the good and the bad,
the gift and the shadow,
the blessing and the curse.

I wish for sad times, frowns and
a long stormy night.
So that I can better appreciate
good cheer, lots of smiles,
and a bit of sunshine.

I wish for recipes gone wrong and burnt meals so that I can enjoy my cooking when it comes out right.

I wish for sorrow so that I can
recognize joy, deep down, heartfelt joy.

I wish for confusion, frustrations, and loneliness
so that I can experience understanding,
acceptance, and companionship.

I wish for absences and distance between loved ones so
that I treasure lengthy lunches filled with conversations with good friends.

I wish for tears that later turn into laughter.

I wish for days filled with struggles and turmoil so I can relish a day when all things go smoothly.

I wish for heart aches and hurts so
that I can hold tight to a love that lasts a lifetime.

That's my birthday wish.