Transitions.... Again!

I am transitioning once again.


I am boxing up my memories, all my 'fung something', bits and pieces of myself again and packing them away on a shelf in the garage.


I resigned my position at Habitat for Humanity to become a stay at home wife and mother again.

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever find a place that truly feels comfortable, feels like I fit in, and belong. (I should clarify that before some people begin wondering what I mean.)

My wondering applies more to what I am supposed to 'do' with my life,
and isn't about who I am supposed to 'be' with.

I know resigning was the right decision at this time, but it doesn't keep me from wondering what I am meant to do now.

Am I just supposed to 'be'?
Be here for Jeff?
Be here for the kids?
Just be ... here?

Maybe the answer is yes, at least for now.
Maybe the answer is yes.

I think that is the scary part for me.
Maybe the answer is just yes.

Fr. Dan used to say we are Human 'Be'ings,
Not Human 'Do'ings.

Perhaps that is all I need to do is just 'Be'.

Beginning 8 days from now I will be unemployed by my own choice.
I let go of a job in a time when thousands are unemployed and unable to find work.

So I better get used to the idea...

I will try to not 'Do' so much and just 'Be' for a while.

I guess that will leave me more time for blogging.

Perhaps the Best is Yet to Come!